update

So were now in florida. have been for a month now. i FINALLY start work tomorrow. lets hope i dont quit on my first day, its to long of a story to tell you everything but pretty much theyre SO disorginized to the fact that they LOST my application with me SSN and address and phone number all on it! were in our own place which is so nice. and im super proud of myself. this week ive made every meal at home and gone to the gym three times. i cant remember the last time i went to the gym 3 out of 5 days! michael is doing great he learned to say dog, this isnt so exciting to most but for us its huge! and my parents got remarried im no where near happy about that. im loving being back with family its absolutly wonderful! and justin and i are ok i guess. but its late im exhuasted and i have to be up in 6 hours. joy.

the move

well if you dont know already our move has been postponed. my transmission blew on wednesday. so my car is in the shop till atleast the 29th. were currently waiting for the warrenty people to ok the replacement, thank god i bought the extended warrenty though! and thankfully it happened before we left so it happened here and not in the middle of nowhere. lynda had to postpone her ticket so the earliest we can leave is the 5th because thats the lowest airfare. i hope it gets sorted out soon. i should be in florida by now, well the very very top of florida ;). i just have the worst luck. i told everyone months and months ago i needed a new car, no one listened. so till its fixed everything is up in the air.

Phantom of the Opera

well Justin and i went to PotO on the 2nd. it was his fathers day present. it was absolutly beyond amazing! we both enjoyed it, though justin didnt like the woman behind us kicking him every 5 minutes. we had front row mezzanaine seats that were great! i really hope we can go to at least one show a year. it was great to get out just the two of us and also to have an excuse to get dressed up! though there was a couple there that made me giggle it looked like they were gonna go to prom! she had prom hair and everything. so long story short best money spent in a long time!

heres a couple pics.

justin and i. yes he wore a 100% wool coat in 90someodd degree heat!

squishy face!

the cast at the end.

the veiw from out seats. you could see everything!

life lessons

i posted this on my myspace but i feel like posting it here also

i stole this off a bulletin by mike. no idea if you wrote it or not but ill give ya credit!

1) Life is constantly changing - resolve to change yourself in order to keep up :)

2) We spend too much time worrying about stuff that we cannot change whether we worry about it or not so... resolve not to worry (do not confuse concern and worry though - learn the difference/know the difference.

3) Stay positive ALWAYS!! no matter the circumstance, it's usually never really as bad as we believe.

4) No matter how hard life is for you, someone is going through worse and that's the truth.

5) If you hit bottom, don't be despondent, afterall, there's only one way to go from there and that's... UP

6) Laugh at yourself often - it's self theraphy.

7) NEVER be afraid to state your opinion - a word of caution though - It's not WHAT you say but HOW you say it.

8) NEVER be afraid to NOT follow the crowd, as a matter of fact, LET THE CROWD FOLLOW YOU. Be prepared, however to be labelled a rebel, b*t*h, etc.....

9) The only person who has to live with you is Y-O-U so live your life in a manner so that you can look yourself in the eyes in the mirror.

10) Based on 9 above, don't place the source of your happiness in anyone's hands but your own. Others can bring you joy, be grateful for that but let the ultimate joy be within you.

theres some good lessons in there!

Getting closer

well moving is getting closer and closer. I've started packing up Michael's room since it seems to be the easiest. We still need to go back to our old house and get the stuff we left and clean it all out. I don't think that will happen till about a week or so before the move. We're trying to find a moving company that will come pack up the house and load it into a truck that he can then drive to Florida. Mainly because I won't be here to help him. I also just started a second job and they don't know I'm leaving so I'm not sure how that's going to work out. I am hoping I can transfer with them but I don't know their policies on that. My general manger at gymbo is leaving and the person we think is taking over knows I am leaving and she's fine with it. Life seems to be taking some funny turns lately but I think it will all be for the better and I think moving will be the best choice ever. So for anyone that wants to keep tabs on the countdown here you go this is the first tentative date
and this is the second


I can't wait I'm getting super excited!

well its finally happening!

were finally moving back to florida!!! YAY! i am so excited. michael and i will be leaving the end of july/beginning of august. justin will be staying till the end of september when our lease goes up so he can stay and build work experience. michael and i will stay with lynda and manny (justins parents) till he gets down then we will get an apartment. i plan on starting back to school this fall and ive decided i want to be an ultrasound technician. i cant wait to move i feel like our life will finally be better and complete. so exciting!!!

First zoo trip!

Michael and I went to the zoo for the first time last Saturday. He had a blast and so did I. I love zoo's and can't wait to take him back! He really loved the chimps and meerkats. There were two baby twin chimps that were just about his age and he got such a kick out of them, it was so cute to watch. We also pet a real live rhino!! Heres some pictures :)

contemplating the chimps

me and my furry friend!

watching the wanna be pigs

with our buddy the rhino!

laughing at those silly meerkats

on a giant gold tortouise

he really wanted to take one home!

its been awhile

well i havent posted in about a month! a lot has happened. justin roll his SUV so thats been a major headache. were trying to find him a new car but since hes only been at his job 1.5 months its been hard. his mom is offering to help if the payment is low enough though. hes tastes are just to expenisve though.

in other news were not doing so great realtionship wise. im not sure were life is taking us and im confused and upset about it all. and this car thing is making it ten times worse.

oh and im working more! yay! finally a store that works me! im looking for another job though i need more money and steady work.

michael is also doing fabulous! he just cut his 7th tooth! hes walking everywhere trying to run and babbling all the time i wish he would start normal talking though i dont speak giberish.

well i guess thats my update ill try to post more often!

scariest moment ever!

i was changing michael this morning and he was squirming everywhere, which he does so often now. well his hutch on top of this changing table has no way of being secured down. we never thought of this as a problem before because it was back up to a wall and couldnt go anywhere. well now it can! michael pushed it to hard and it came crashing down on him. i thought he was gonna get smooshed. i tried to protect his head as much as possible and throw it over him. well it hit him but not hard he had a little red mark for a couple hours but thats it. hes doing fine and now we have the hutch against the wall like before. it was so scary. i was shaking. he didnt even care he just wanted his nap. i hope nothing like this ever happens again i thought i was gonna have a heart attack.

its official

i am now officially a tulsan! justin and i are now living in tulsa finally. and of course a few days after we get here it freakin hails so now we both have hail damage :( oh well thats why you have insurance right! and i started at the gymboree up here this past monday and LOVE it. such a great store everyone is awesome and so much fun! well this was a short post but it was straight to the point at least :)

why do i do this?

why do i give myself a heartattack every time theres a tornado warning (aka watch if you dont know our crazy system). everytime i see circulation on the screen i flip out. im currently still awake because i know the sirens wouldnt wake me up. i really need one of those weather radios that go crazy when theres a new warning or whatever. ive been watching the weather men since like 9:15 or something so over 3 hours now! i think im gonna go insane. and the storm is JUST NOW getting to mustang! can we say slooooow storm. like 15-25 mph moving. grr. and its starting to hail so of course harvey is starting to go crazy and i pray he doesnt wake up michael. im amazed hes still asleep! you should see the laundry room i think i went a little crazy grabbing things to put in there. we so arent prepared. if we dont lose internet well be set cause i can watch live broadcast weather. luckily the storm decided to turn north a little so were not getting everything we were supposed to. and luckily the storm weakened even after two storms merged so the circulation went bye bye but im still freaked. i wont be able to sleep until it totally passes. justin thinks im crazy but id rather be safe then sorry. im currently seeing goldball sized hail on tv from a storm chaser thats 1.5-2 miles from my house. about an hour and a half ago i became super woman and cleared half my garage so i could get my car in. if youve seen my garage you know how packed it is! the storm seems to be passing thankfully. hopefully i can go to bed here in the next 30 minutes. haha the weather man just said you can tell these storms formed on sunday cause theyre moving like sunday drivers! lol that made me giggle. im glad i let my dogs out at 11 cause they arent going out in the wetness! i wish justin was here i wouldnt be freaking out as much. and i didnt even get to watch my shows tonight! though thankfully they were recorded before the 3 hour weather broadcast. well the red is officially above us but i believe its still storming outside so i dunno what their radar is thinkin. and now theres flooding in places yay!

in other news i have a cold and im hopefully moving to tulsa this weekend woohoo. guess ill start getting ready for bed.

well...

weve called the engagement off. i feel about 5 million emotions about it. but it had to happen. life is pretty crazy right now and i have no idea where its leading me. im falling back into things ive wanted to never fall into again. im going to start back to a therapist and hopefully justin will one day join me.

just thought id let everyone know.

annoyed and sad

i guess this might be a kind of vent/whine post.

i feel like im being left behind and forgotten in life. i feel like most (not all) of my friends are living their lives and forgetting about me. people i used to be super super close to and now havent talked to in months. people who i leave messages and comments for and dont hear back. or if i do its weeks or months later. people who *assume* theyre gonna be invited to my wedding, but yet dont talk to me. why would i even bother inviting you if you dont talk to me? i have 5 or so really good friends in life. i used to have A LOT more. people who i used to spend all my time with dont even remember my sons birthday.

how can people say theyre your friends but then just drop you when they feel like it? i dont understand it. maybe thats why im ok not moving back to florida cause ya know what i have ONE friend there. and her wonderful new hubby so really two. but the other 10 or more people i thought would be lifelong friends dont even bother to drop me an email unless i email them first and even then i might not get a response. i know i moved 1500 miles away but im still me im still the person you became friends with. distance isnt an excuse because i still have good friends here in oklahoma that our friendships lasted through my 2.5 year time i lived in florida.

i feel like people are really fake. and its really frustrating. i dont see how you can think were still friends.
deffinition of friendship - friend·ship /ˈfrɛndʃɪp/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend-ship] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy.
3. friendly feeling or disposition. [Origin: bef. 900; ME; OE fréondscipe. See friend, -ship] —Synonyms 2. harmony, accord, understanding, rapport.

deffinition of friend - friend /frɛnd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
4. a member of the same nation, party, etc.
5. (initial capital letter) a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker. –verb (used with object)
6. Rare. to befriend. —Idiom
7. make friends with, to enter into friendly relations with; become a friend to.

i dont feel like many people are living up to this when it comes to my life. i can count on my one hand people who in real life have lived up to those deffinitions. i dont like that feeling. i mean people dont even take the time out of their busy schedule to answer a myspace or facebook comment. really how hard is that? oh well i guess you learn the truth about people eventually.

its kinda sad my online friends are better friends then most of my real life friends....

my chuppah inspiration

just so everyone can see heres some of my inspiration :) and of course it would be in our colors and flowers.

boredom

im bored and p.org isnt working. michael wont sleep and i should be cleaning but here i am. justin asked me to finish cleaning today but in order to do that michael must be asleep because once i make a noise he starts to cry, and hes not even in the same room. so here i sit watching wednesdays days of our lives and writing this. ive been trying to find more insperation pics for the wedding and ive been looking for DJs and photo/video people but people arent smart and dont put there prices on their websites! i faxed off the contract for the venue for the ceremony/reception so that is finally done yay!

were still waiting to hear back from the lady at t-mobile about justins background report. turns out shes been out of the office for a week due to being sick. so we will see what happens. if the take back his job offer im gonna be PISSED! it wouldnt be the first time theyve done it. i think it should be against the law. but everything came off his background in nov so they shouldnt have a problem with it cause their rules are that it cant be within 5 years well in nov it was 5 years at least thats when they told him to re-apply. he had applied there in 05 and they offered him a job then 2 weeks later told him they were taking back the job offer. yea not so good. i just really want to get our house sold and move back to florida. i dont wanna be here anymore and i know im the one that forced the move out here but that was for a lot of bad reasons. im nervous about her calling, she didnt call today at least not to my knowledge and to me i would think that she would call right away if it was good news. hopefully shes just backed up.

now back to my cleaning. i hate hate hate cleaning i wish i could win the lotto so i could hire a maid. im so not a normal girl i guess cause i also hate cooking. i need a chef and a maid lol oh life would be grand. or i need someone to teach me how to cook and how to make cleaning fun or at least tolerable. im also a packrat who likes to read every paper i come across while reading so it takes hours for just one room. maybe thats why i dont like to do it. its wierd cause i love cleaning windows and dusting. vacuuming and doing the floors yea not so much. plus michael HATES the sound of the vacuum so that happens not as often as it should.

ugh guess its time to stop writting thanks for reading if you read it all! :)

Wedding inspiration pictures

Our colors are a chocolate brown and a teal blue somewhat like a tiffanys blue but a little darker. if that makes any sense.

Heres some ideas for cakes (i dont want any flowers on my cake though)

This is my absolute favorite but brown and blue

Heres some hair ideas



Heres some flower ideas

I really want a lot of peonies, hydrangeas, iris's (but only for the special people ;) ), sweet peas, lillies, and orchids.
**Bouquets

**Centerpieces

These last three are my favorite centerpieces.

**Bouts

more to come later

**Random Things**

My Ring

Its 2 am

and im awake. michael woke up at his normal 1245-1250 and i think **knock on wood** that hes asleep for good. im watching th x effect i get sucked into this show. oh the drama. i hate it in my own life but its fun to watch on tv :) michaels video moniter is fuzzy and acting up. he knocked it off the stand and now the anttena isnt lined up or something. i found a love for IKEA today. ive never been but got the urge to look online and found a ton of things i can use for the wedding! i also think im going to make my save th date cards because justin and i cant agree on ANYTHING and id save some money. i found the people i want to make the invites theyre gorgeous invites and rather cheap. i feel so behind on all things wedding. its frustrating cause if you know me im very OCD about this stuff. oh well this has taken ten minutes to right this little blurb think im finally gonna go to bed. night all.

Well here i go, start stalking!

Ok so ive been forced to start this lol. hope i can keep up with it, lord knows i talk enough! so i dont know where to start. lifes good. michaels 11 months on monday (holy sh*t) and its less then 9 months to the wedding (another holy sh*t). i cant wait to tell my boss im transfering i think im gonna do a happy dance! oh yea ps were moving if you didnt know. justin got a better job in fort lauderdale so back we go! its paying 6 bucks more an hour and AMAZING benefits, did i mention my cell phone bill will drop by like 60 bucks! the weather was sooo nice today it was in the 60s!! and the housing market is booming so im excited that hopefully our house will sell fast. the dogs are doing good. gizmo (the shihtzu) hair was getting crazy and had a bunch of knots in it, we were keeping up with it. so now we had to shave him completely. ive never seen a fully shaved shih tzu. he looks like a pug with a nose. weve taken to calling him frank because he looks like the dog from men in black who was named frank. he actually responds to it lol our neighborhood is almost finished being built. and we are officially the only floorplan in the neighborhood!! woohoo! and our floorplan kicks butt! well the wedding is coming along, we picked a venue and i picked my dress. the venue is GalleryOne which is a doubletree hotel, and my dress is by maggie sottero and its absolutly gorgeous! im currently trying to pick save the date cards and figure out where we wanna go for our honeymoon. my next stress is finding an amazing photographer in our budget, photographers in fort lauderdale are OUTRAGEOUS! i think thats about it thats going on. im sure ill be posting a ton more in the next few months! sorry this was all over the place :)