annoyed and sad

i guess this might be a kind of vent/whine post.

i feel like im being left behind and forgotten in life. i feel like most (not all) of my friends are living their lives and forgetting about me. people i used to be super super close to and now havent talked to in months. people who i leave messages and comments for and dont hear back. or if i do its weeks or months later. people who *assume* theyre gonna be invited to my wedding, but yet dont talk to me. why would i even bother inviting you if you dont talk to me? i have 5 or so really good friends in life. i used to have A LOT more. people who i used to spend all my time with dont even remember my sons birthday.

how can people say theyre your friends but then just drop you when they feel like it? i dont understand it. maybe thats why im ok not moving back to florida cause ya know what i have ONE friend there. and her wonderful new hubby so really two. but the other 10 or more people i thought would be lifelong friends dont even bother to drop me an email unless i email them first and even then i might not get a response. i know i moved 1500 miles away but im still me im still the person you became friends with. distance isnt an excuse because i still have good friends here in oklahoma that our friendships lasted through my 2.5 year time i lived in florida.

i feel like people are really fake. and its really frustrating. i dont see how you can think were still friends.
deffinition of friendship - friend·ship /ˈfrɛndʃɪp/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend-ship] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy.
3. friendly feeling or disposition. [Origin: bef. 900; ME; OE fréondscipe. See friend, -ship] —Synonyms 2. harmony, accord, understanding, rapport.

deffinition of friend - friend /frɛnd/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.
2. a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends of the Boston Symphony.
3. a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?
4. a member of the same nation, party, etc.
5. (initial capital letter) a member of the Religious Society of Friends; a Quaker. –verb (used with object)
6. Rare. to befriend. —Idiom
7. make friends with, to enter into friendly relations with; become a friend to.

i dont feel like many people are living up to this when it comes to my life. i can count on my one hand people who in real life have lived up to those deffinitions. i dont like that feeling. i mean people dont even take the time out of their busy schedule to answer a myspace or facebook comment. really how hard is that? oh well i guess you learn the truth about people eventually.

its kinda sad my online friends are better friends then most of my real life friends....